useless

i'm now 19 going to be 20 yet i'm still so reliable on my mom... y am i so useless?? i'm kinda like a mama boy... not being able to be seperated from her... i should be independant since i'm a big boy now... its the 5th day now and she still haven recover... her platlet is still dropping... getting more and more worried... i cant do the house chores as good as my mom does... but yet i'm still trying my best... if only i could stand... things would be much much more easier... oh GOD please help me and cure my mom.... PLEASE!!!!!!