wont be here for a while

since i'm going into uni tomolo i guess i wont be able to online until after the orientation... and i dont know i will survive tomolo or not... my fever still haven go away... i think i might have denggi... haiz... OH GOD PLEASE CURE ME..... will be back asap... ya and yesterday my friend Jin Liang was so kind to drop by my house and visit me... while sheng yong drop by today... got my yoyo factory skyline too... will upload the pictures next time... feeling too weak now... need to rest...

today

today its been a really hectic day... din even get to do wat i always do.... due to preparation to enter UPM... so this morning went to the hospital again for my ortho appointment... did 4 freaking x-rays just at my hips... suppose to be 3 only but 1 turn out not to be so clear so have to retake again... dunno how many cells have been killed... then went in to see the doctor... today was my shortest wait for the doctor... after looking at the x-ray film.... the doctor say that my AVN has reached the final stage and nothing much could be done to relieve the pain unless i do a major operation to change away both the hip joints into artificial one... guess how much each of it will cost me... RM12000!!!!!! so a pair will be RM24000!!!!! where the hell i'm going to gather so much money??? and it can only last me for about 10 years.... then next time i have to come up with the money on my own to change it... if i do this operation again i will have extra scars at my leg again... its going to be awfully ugly.... haiz... since now i'm gonna enter uni i guess i'll just hold on that operation 1st till my 1st sem break around november.... hopefully after changing it i will not feel any pain anymore....

then later went to the section 7 polyclinic to do a health check up required by the uni... but too bad the appointment can only be made at 16 or 17... so many ppl come aleidi so my turn was push way far behind...then just do another chest x-ray... ANOTHER X-RAY!!!!!!

since my driving license expired last friday so today my mom helped me to renew it... i had to wait in the car under the hot sun for at least 1 hour before it was done... by the time my mom get to the car i was sweating like hell...

next went to jalan taiping to buy my beg and white shirts... all together cost around RM120++... very expensive lor... but the sales girl very pretty... haha... too bad i was on my 'tongkat'... so no chance to 'da san'.... hahahaa.... next stop is bukit raja JJ... bought another 2 pair of trousers.... i just walked a bit only and i eventually felt too tired when i got back to the car... my stamina is so damn low... how am i going to survive in UPM since it has the largest compound in Malaysia...

when i reached home i finally got a fever... due to waiting to long in the car during 12pm time... now finally feeling better a bit... y my body is so damn weak???? WHY??????? How to survive like this???

busy

just viewed my offer letter online since mine haven arrive in the post... walau nvr thought going to uni need to prepare so many stuff... so now busy buying all the essential items like clothes,junk food, daily utensils and many more... need to do health check up and renew my license also... so so busy... hopefully can make it by this coming week...

missed something

omg... i just found out that i missed the radio show on hitz.fm.... dunno wat day the Japan GT queens were with them in the studio... and i totally missed it... yor... damn unlucky lar... looks like i have to wait for the next years japan GT.... ARGH!!!!!!!!!!! angry now...

a new life coming up

so yesterday midnight waited for the application result... and most of u have known wat i've got... its electric and electronic engineering... its my sixth choice.... so far behind hor... actually i accidentally filled my fifth one same with my first... so wasted one choice le.... aiks... at first i was kinda disappointed with what i get... cuz all along i wanted to study chemical engineering or actuarial science which is not too common yet... but too bad my results is not good enough to study those... cant blame anyone for getting not good enough result in STPM since i ownself fall sick at that time... so after chatting with my friends after getting the result till 1-2am... i finally accepted what i've got and prepared to accept that offer... y i accept it so fast u all sure wondering... its because if i take up this course i could fulfill my destiny of creating my own lightsaber...

using the knowledge i learn during my uni life i could get back to my revenge that i have planned last year... maybe its just my destiny set by god.... and now most probabaly my genting schoalrship will be denied cuz i din get what i applied for... its kinda another sad news... most of my friends also get into different uni than me... so i'm gonna start making new friends in the new campus... very looking forward to it... hopefully will get another best friend tat has the same interest as me... keeping fingers crossed...

the long wait is almost over

tomorrow the university application results will be out... so i guess i wont be sleeping till way pass midnight today... and i already had a bad feeling about it... ithink i wont get my choices at all... maybe not able to get into uni at all... this is because my unlucky left eye has been blinking all day... so wont be hoping so much... i guess u all will be able to see my sad face the next day...

random stuff

a lot of things has been on my mind lately... but yet i'm not emo enough to blog everything out... so now forcing myself to update my own blog...

next Wednesday my uni application result will be out already... feeling really gan jiong now... i'm just afraid that i would not get a place in uni... but wat if i were to get a place,how am i gonna survive in the university when i still cannot stand or walk well... the compound of the university is so big and surely i have to walk from one campus to another to attend lectures... yet looking on the bright side i would be able to make new friends and learn new stuff... i've been stuck at home for too long...

nowadays the mosquitoes at my house is getting more and more... theres one day that i single handedly killed 7 mosquitoes... mosquitoes are just a bigger menace than lizards... i dont know why girls are more scared of lizards since they wont harm us that much... on the other hand mosquitoes could bring dangerous disease to us human beings.... for example my mom got denggi fever last week... so how do we actually get rid of these pest??? i used lots of mosquito sprays to kill them... yet they multiply so fast and it seems like the spray isnt working anymore... they are immune to it...

everyday i've been enjoying yoyoing.... i'm still waiting for my yyf skyline to reach me... but once i received it i will be broke... actually i'm broke already... how could i find the extra money to buy more yoyos??? i still wanna buy a pair of looping yoyos to learn 2A... am i too greedy to want everything at the same time???

the Japan GT roadshow is coming to klang on the 17... i really hope that i could go and see it... who can bring me there??? since my parents dont allow me to drive... speaking of driving,my P license is gonna expire real soon... but i dont have the money to renew it .... i also dont have the suitable photo to be put in it...

a test that i just did on the sins that i have... and looks like i have very high greed after all...

Greed:	Very High
Gluttony:	Medium
Wrath:	Medium
Sloth:	Medium
Envy:	High
Lust:	Medium
Pride:	High

The Seven Deadly Sins Quiz on 4degreez.com

thats all for now.... cioaz....

back to normal

after today everything should be back to normal again... my mom is back from the hospital already... dont need to do all the house work le.... yay... but i promise myself even if i dont need to do those any more i will nvr again give more trouble to my mom when she do the house work...

pain...

after just cleaning the ground floor of my house my 2 legs are now very very painful... i have ignored the doctor's order to minimise walking and clean the house by walking for i think 1 hour... what to do.. i have no choice but to clean the house... i dont want my sister to waste time cleaning the house and din have enough time to study... so i sacrifice myself... i hope that with my actions today there wont be any bad consequences in the future... my heart is also in pain... every time i do until so suffer i cried each time... yearning for my mom... while typing this my tears also slowly start to come out already... i cant help it... i'm just so useless...

useless

i'm now 19 going to be 20 yet i'm still so reliable on my mom... y am i so useless?? i'm kinda like a mama boy... not being able to be seperated from her... i should be independant since i'm a big boy now... its the 5th day now and she still haven recover... her platlet is still dropping... getting more and more worried... i cant do the house chores as good as my mom does... but yet i'm still trying my best... if only i could stand... things would be much much more easier... oh GOD please help me and cure my mom.... PLEASE!!!!!!

helpless

its been almost a day my mom is not at home... me and my sis have been given the task to do all the house chores... to me now the house is just like half chaos... this is because we couldnt do a really good job... today my sis need to go to school and she is still partially sick... so basically i have to do everything since she will be quite busy from now onwards... this is actually my first time doing house chores... all along my mom never let me do it because she wanted me to concentrate on my own studies... everyone sure will think that i'm too pampered and i admit i am pampered by my mom.... so now when it really comes to depend on myself i'm in big trouble... if i was normal now i think i will be able to do the house chores properly... but now i cant even walk or stand for long.... how do u expect me to swipe,mop,wash the clothes,etc etc..... i am really suffering right now... next time when i start my university life time how??? will i be able to take care of myself??? i dont think so lor... since there are many things that i have to depend on other people... then when i grow up already leh??? i think at that time i have to hire some one to help me around... this means i've got to work extremely hard to earn enough money to survive... i'm really really greatfull for what my mom has done for me in the past years... i'm sorry for giving her such a hard time last time by messing up the house and give her more work to do... i hope that my mom will quickly get cured now so that life could go back the way it used to be.... i dont know how long more i could tahan... please god help me!!!!! currently emoing....

falling sick

this time finally is not me falling sick... its my mom and my sis... my mom started to have fever 4 ays ago but it gone off after 2 days... she also vomitted quite a lot all these days and still haven stop.... she also have aches all over her body... so today after she took a blood test at the hospital finally confirmed got denggi fever le... so its now her turn to get admitted... my sis leh yesterday started to have fever... when today she go to the hospital with my mom the 1st thing the doctor found out wats wrong with her is she is haveing high blood pressure... at such a young age already got high blood pressure... ask her not to eat so salty stuff but she dont wanna listen... so today she kena poke by the doctor with a long needle and was put on drip... her drip was so fast... just within a few hours can come back home already.... so now since my mom is not at home its me and my sis turn to do the house work.... poor me... not able to move around freely yet need to help aound... if dont help my sis sure will make a lot of noise 1.... so the hardship starts now....

sleepless nights

haiz... this few days cant sleep well at night... everyday thinking of the new skyline that i've ordered but not yet receive... really hope that dimi will one day be free and drop by to pass me the yoyo....

Japan Super GT

the Japan Super GT is coming back to malaysia... and this year i'm gonna miss it again... but the reason for missing it is different from the past years... last time is always no money to buy the tickets... the main grand stand tickets cost RM150 but since i'm a student i can get half price for it... plus another ticket for the pit walkabout pass that cost RM100... actually what i really want is the pit walkabout pass only... but u have to purchase the main grand stand ticket only u can get it... do u know y i want that pit walkabout pass so much??? its because i would like to get myself close to those GT cars and especially those GT japan models... those models are damn pretty... but too bad the Japan GT queens this year dont look as nice as the past years... in the pass years i managed to take a few pictures with them and since then on i kinda get addicted to them le... hahaha.... i'm especially good at taking models picture with my digital camera... dont know y....

hopefully this year pray again see got miracle will happen or not so i can go to the Japan GT race held in sepang....