finally for christmas i got a present d.... kinda happy bout it.... christmas was just another normal holiday for me... not much celebration... so now thinking of a plan to go countdown... who wanna go???

i dont understand y everytime when i'm down or when i'm in pain i'll surely remember of her... the moments we spent together n all the other happy things... i really wish i could turn back time where i din face any health problem at all... things are just getting i suppose... frequent headaches... hopefully its just migraine and not tumor those kind... no time n scared to go n check...

moodless

i'm getting lazy and lazier to upload things to the internet d... so many n its tiring... sorry ya... might stop uploading interesting photos for the moment... being moodless now...

pap 外务2nd day

2nd day start to feel tired d.... after walking the whole day... noticed a girl during this day... wanted to know her more.... pics

pap 外务1st day

on the 1st day i was a bit scared to ask donation from others.. but after playing around.... i kinda found out its really fun doing it....

pics below.....

pap camp part2

last upload for pap camp....

pap camp part1

pics are being uploaded bit by bit each day....

21

i'm officially 21 now... the whole day din do anything... no celebration and wat not... here is a recent pic of me la....

4.12.2009

i'm not officially 21 years old till 7.30pm of today... today should be a happy day for me cuz i manage to ask for leave from my intern to celebrate my birthday.... BUT too bad the only way i'm going to celebrate it is just by staying at home and face my laptop screen... isnt tat pathetic??? after 21 years on earth still ppl is too bz to celebrate it with me... at least through facebook there is a few tat drop by to wish me... if i din post up when is my birthday i think there will be 0 wishes lo... only maybe got a few frens tat might remember.... at least at this very moment still got 2 leng lui tat accompany me n chat for a while la.... i think tat is more than enough le which i can ask for... so my birthday wish for this year will always be the same till i really really get it... which is to get a girl tat care for me n i swear i will care for her as well in the very best way tat i can....

more photos coming up soon... be prepared..... doing some editing now... got half more to go which is around 1000+ more....

1st week....

its the fourth day of my internship now... i've learn at least something everyday... though it may not be something big but at least i do learn a few small things here and there so at least the petrol money is not wasted la... but just after the 1st day of intern i start to become lazy liao... everyday dun feel like going for intern... damn y am i so lazy??? when go to class time also i dun have this problem... maybe because here i dun have any frens... all the ppl here are workaholics... start work at 8.30am n dunno go back at what time... nvr stayed back tat long to know it... next week i'm going to PAP camp d... hope it would be a fun 1 lar... or else... haiz... pray tat this sat things will go smoothly la... adios...

time fly so damn fast... another sem of my uni has just passed again... and i dunno wat i have done during this 6 months... wat 收获 also dun hav... but at least got 1 happy thing la... dun think can say it out here cuz some1 is reading secrectly... confirm is not get a gf cuz i'm not tat lucky... haiz... tomolo have to start my internship aleidi... and i dun even know wat am i going to be doing... so hopefully this internship is a fun 1 la... ciaoz...

1111

just only notice todays date and month is 1111... i heard is call single awareness day... tak tau true or not... but i really going through a lonely day la... alone in the room study for my last paper on the 13... 2 more days to go till i get to work... sigh.... no enjoyment for my coming life......

balance

after 2 weeks of exam... finally balance only 1 more paper which is maths... which will be the most difficult paper of them all... cuz wat the lecturer teach in class i understand but wat he come out in exam i dont understand at all... so dunno how to do lo even though got open notes....... so now within this 1 week must really pis and hope i can get an A la in math... tats wat i can only dream of now...

was brutally slaughtered by last friday's paper... trying to regain the strength to continue again for next tuesday 1... come on NICHOLAS... i know u can do it...

its time

after studying for a few days for final exam.... and i think its time now to vomit all the info in my brain on the exam paper le... but dunno how much can come out leh,since not much hasgone in my brain... hopefully i wont do tat badly lar... pls pray for me.....

very stress

now super stress ar... too many things to do within 1 week... and all this need time to complete it.... study for japanese quiz, math test 2, do digital assignments an etc.... how to finish all these things when i dun even have any idea how to do it... can anyone really help me??? pls GOD.... give me the wisdom and strength to complete my task....

this few days dunno y... the feeling of wanting a girlfriend just dissapear aleidi... looks like my meditation works... no more this kind of feeling d... can finally concentrate on my studies and yoyoing.... good for me....

hasnt been updating my blog regularly due to busy schedule of my uni life... plus no internet line in my room... so now to post a few pic tat i've taken....

today will be a bz day for me... first time being a wedding photographer... hopefully i'll snap nice pictures la... time to sleep and recharge...

seeing so many ppl all around me are getting paired up... dunno should i be happy or sad leh??? happy for them but sad for myself cuz i still single??? haiz... dunno y i just have this feeling i'm meant to be alone... either be a priest or maybe a loner and do nasty stuff... still haven got any idea... haiz....

back at home again at last... having nive internet speed... can do watever i wan on the comp now... but too bad this holiday is not for me to enjoy as i have still 2 lab reports to do... and also 5 subjects to revise...if i dun revise during this holiday i think i'll fail my test 2 which is straight after raya... so wish me luck on it la..... ciaoz...

ish....

this few days really not in a good mood... but to others they think i'm always in a bad mood... just tat this week really cham... too many things to do... and my internet line super sucks now... cant even do anything... assignments not done.. lab report also... tomolo got meetings some more... but at least while i'm doing all this stuff i can keep my mind out of those things lar...

09.09.09

many ppl say that this date is a very special date... but it seems to me just like any other noral day... i guess i just dont know how to appreciate it or maybe i'm just too busy with my daily live.... no choice lor... lots of test and assignments that need to pass up this and next week... got photos to edit some more... can anybody help me???

once again i fail to be in the board member of PAP 2010... looks like they thought i really could not cope up with my activities.... nvr mind... dun wan to bother them d... just focus on my ESTEM activity where there are so many leng lui.... but i think sure mostly all taken d de la... at least there still got nice view... hahaha... really need to thanks Linda for this opportunity....

after a whole night of copying answers i finally copied finish... but i haven check the answers that i've done on myself and the dateline is just within an hour... how ar??? die die lor... today will start my busy schedule all over again... hopefully i got the strength to continue.... :)

anxious

waiting anxiously for tomolo's Malaysian Yoyo Championship 2009... will be entering the speed challenge... hopefully i'll qualify for sundays final lar.... gambatte la me....

trying to calm myself down and remind myself the promise tat i've made before.... dont take any action... PATIENCE!!!!!!!!

failed

how do u console a person that has failed in an exam ar??? seems like all the method i used is not working... can any1 help me???

recently

yesterday was too too bz till wasnt to update the good news tat i receive yesterday... though not fully confirm how much is the value but just the mere knowing i'm a scholar makes me happy... but the happy moments dont last long...after the next day, reality catch up with me very quickly... my electric circuit test din know how to answer cuz havent got any time to study and was too tired to study after my ESTEM exco meeting... then later i remembered i have tons and tons of work needed to be done by next week.... lets list it out shall we...
1.system digit lab
2.maths test revision
3.math hw
4.jap quiz revision
5.bbi conversation critique(which have been totally rejected by the lecturer)
6.system digit tutorial
7.jap hw
8.uncountables activity meeting

all this happening next week... how ar??? die die lo...

this 2 and a half so called holiday i did practically ntg much except study and do reports... its just the same old routine for my weekend... kinda feel bored of it... but what to do... life just goes on... after today again have to face all the endless classes... next week is just full of test... i dont know i'm ready for it somemore... u all tell me lar how screwed i am... besides that i'm in emo mode some more... some things are just bothering me... though i know whats the outcome aleidi... ciaoz.... need to meditate to calm my mind aleidi...

things i really really relly want will nvr ever get 1... after so many 'experiments' i've found out that the statement is 100% true for me.... i just dont understand why... i know i work very very hard for it and tried my best... in fact this is the 1st time i felt very confident with myself thinking i will get it already.... but in the end i failed..... GOD is really playing a joke on me... is he telling me now tat i'm not meant to hope for something and get it??? then i guess i should nvr ever hope that i passed the scholarship interview, getting extremely good results or getting a girl friend....

i think i know wats the next action to take for the previous post that i posted earlier.... which is to take no action at all and let everything comes naturally...

dilema...

i know i made a vow before not to do that anymore and just let it come naturally.... but temptation is really huge.... pls any1 help me... expecially GOD....

it begins

finally the tough times during my 3rd sem is about to start tomolo cuz lots of test is being held, assignments due date very near and classes is going on as usual while hw are still given too... so will i be able to survive during these times??? only god knows....

times like this

during times like now is the most busiest moment in uni... all my assignments are piling up... lab reports just keep coming every week... then test is coming also... besides that interesting activities are attracting me to be involved in... how to manage my time leh??? if only my concentrations are good enough... then i can manage everything properly...

after 2 days...

today din work at pc fair d... cuz was sick and tired le... not really sick though... just tat i'm really tired... there's a few things that i've found when i was working during these 1 days... No1... most of the maxis broadband promoters arent really honest when explaining to their customers... no wonder so many customer feel they get cheated by maxis and complain so so much lar... haiz.... if i use their methos also dunno y i cant get many customers also... only manage to get 3 in these 2 days... hopefully boss wont hold back my money lar... i'm the only part timer which did very badly... No2... this time pc fair hor dunno where all the leng lui vanish d leh... must be hiding from the H1N1 virus... or else must be all company no budget to hire them to attract all the 'colour wolfs'... No3.... things there like not really attractive also d... things tat i wanna buy only a few shops sell... have to go hunting for it... dunno bought it expensive or not lor...
so tats all that i have to say for this pc fair.... ciaoz...

tomolo i'm going to work at the pc fair for my first time... hopefully i can perform well lar... frens pls come support me at the maxis broadband booth... time to rest now.. its going to be a long day tomorrow...

via XPERIA

sudden sem break

oh no... my august sem break has just been brought forward all of a sudden... due to H1N1 outbreak at my uni... uni will undergo quarantine soon... dunno how many is forced to stay behind leh... i for 1 ran out the fastest and reach home the earliest i think... but forgotten something le... haiz.... no syok a... all my sem break plans all gone d... have to replan... ish... hate it ar when things dont go according to plan...

4th and 5th week...

this 2 weeks are the days i scare... all of a sudden like din learn anything in class then must sit for test d.... so many thing yet to be done yet some more... die die lor... can i cope up with it????

diabolo

today was my first time attending the diabolo class in my uni... mostly all the new learners are female and they r juniors... too bad not many of them look nice... haha... used my own special diabolo and in the end my string gave way and broke.. the diabolo hit my left index finger and its now pain like nobody's business... hopefully will not happen a second time...

via XPERIA

sick

really sick now... fever hasnt go away after 3 days.. only after eating panadol can control it... after medicine effect wears off i will start to feel hot and sometimes start to shiver... new sypmtoms are starting to pop up... just pray its not anything serious... will visit my doctor tomolo if tomolo morning still the same or get worst...

i'm still not recovering... it hink if by friday i'm still like this i think i need to go to hospital serdang for a checkup... pls o pls... faster heal... i dun wan to get admitted into the hospital again....

July the 13th

yesterday was a day for me to remember... as i had lost something really precious 2 years ago... i couldnt imagine 2 years had passed so fast... still deep down in me i miss her very very much... 13th July seems to be not a good day for this year too... start to fall sick yesterday... was having just mild fever and uncomfort at my throat... the moment i slept at night things started to become from bad to worst... and now starting to suffer... do hope i can recover fast... pray for me guys....

tomolo will be the real time table packed with studies... hopefully i can survive through the day...

via XPERIA

sem starts

the moment my sem starts i was filled with all sorts of activities... getting really really busy again... not with books and chicks though... have to find time to relax a bit or else i'll be all stressed out and fall sick again... gambate to all those out there starting their new sem la... here is a few pictures i've taken the day before my class starts....