i came across this post on some ones blog... since i also gone through some of it... i might as well just copy and let my readers read it... so here goes....
we've all gone through it, well most of us anyway. i was sure that absolutely no one in the world had ever, or would ever, experience the pain that i was feeling after my break up. funny. because that wasnt the case at all. so, for all you newbies who ask the questions, "will the hurting ever stop," "what did i do wrong", or "will my ex come back," or "why did he/she do this," this is how it typically goes down.
you force yourself to feel inconsolable feelings and somewhat, forever incomplete, unable to comprehend what your friends like me try and explain to you.. i can tell you now that its NOT your fault and thats the only thing you need to try and understand at this point in time.
you two break up, doesn't matter who does it. you immediately panic and begin chasing, begging, pleading, harrassing, phoning, e-mailing, msn'ing, stalking (okay not all of them lol, just pick whichever one you did). most of us will likely do some things during this stage that will make you cringe when you think back on it, say after about 3 months.
you lose weight. you neglect yourself, your uni work, your house, your job. you drive your friends or maybe your family crazy talking about the break up. you cry at the drop of a dime. you can't even comprehend that your life might not again include that "special person." you begin putting them on a pedestal, forgetting all of the nagging things about them that used to drive you crazy. in your mind, they have become omnipotent, all encompasing, all everything.
you convince yourself that you are a loser who just screwed up a relationship with "the best person in the world." you KNOW without a doubt that you will never ever love like that again. you know no one else will come along who even comes close to being as marvelous as your ex (excuse me while i chuckle to myself here lol). you wear a sad face for the world to see (you should see my work ID taken 2 days after my breakup, it's just pitiful i look like a real life zombie LOL).
they (the ex's) remain steadfast in their denial to get back together. many of them jump straight into new relationships, immediately being exclusive with a new person. for those that do leapfrog, they appear to just "replace" you with a new model. all of the things you two used to do, they now do with someone else. bowling, cuddling watching television, motorcycle riding, driving, making cupcakes.. whatever you two did, likely they will just begin doing those things with someone new.
you hear about them (or will eventually) and their new life. you are desperate for any crumbs of news about their life. many of us make things worse here by trying to use manipulation to get them back, yet they stay away from us like we are the plague.
for those of us who do still have contact with our ex's we begin selling ourselves short. doing stupid things like buying them outrageous and expensive gifts, allowing them access to our bodies and then wanting to strangle them afterward when they remind us that it does not imply hope.
time goes by. you'll do some stupid things. you'll call your ex when you shouldn't. you'll call when you've had to much to drink (guilty as charged). you'll call even after 50 random people tell you not to. you'll show up on their doorstep, hating yourself all the time. then you'll come back to your friends and family and ask everyone to tell you why you were so stupid as to do whatever it was you did.
then you'll get serious about no contact. this is where you LET GO, it'll hurt, but you try to stick to it. here's the turning point for most. for those folks who have contact with their ex's, your no contact will either bring them sniffing curiously around or they'll be somewhere high fiving their friends thanking the god's that you haven't called.
now's the tough time. nothing but time works. everday the ache in your heart grows a little less. it's only nanobits that it dies down by. but everyday it will get slowly better. you'll have setbacks. you'll run into your ex accidently. you'll run into mutual friends who'll tell you something about your ex that'll have you high-tailing it home for a good cry. you'll see your ex with their new "friend", you'll receive a phone call or an e-mail from your ex who "doesn't want to be in a relationship but still wants to be friends".
here's another important part. you need to truly sit down and truthfully look back at the relationship and understand what you did to help with it's demise. if you miss this part, you go through all the suffering for nothing because my dear friend, you'll be back here again. going through the same stages as above but what you missed is teaching yourself how to be a better partner, a better person. missing that lesson is detrimental to the whole process. it's the REASON that you're going through this. god (or whatever your higher power is) needed you to learn something about YOU. don't miss out on the lesson.
then one day you'll smile because you didn't immediately check your answering machine when you came in. and one day you'll decide to clean the muck that has accumulated in your house. and one day you'll go outside and admit to the universe that you surrender what control you thought you had.
and one day you'll decide to date again. and one day you'll go out on your first date and it will likely be a disaster. and then you'll either force yourself to continue dating or you'll decide that you aren't ready to date but you are ready to be out amongst people again. and many of you will have some quick reconcillations with your ex's. many of us won't. but one day, it won't matter as much. because time will allow you to catch yourself going minutes and then hours without thinking of the ex. and you'll begin to be able to think of life possibly without that person and not dissolve into a puddle of nothingness because of that thought alone
and for most of us, sadly, life will go on without that mate. that's the truth, amigos. don't want to dash your hopes but probably less than 3% (ok i made that up rofl) of the people get back with their mates. sobering isn't it? but, as your friends and family instruct, you must accept this before you can truly begin to heal or draw your ex back to you. for the lucky (maybe unlucky one's depending on how much work it will take to keep a mate that has wandered back) who get back with their ex's, many will find that the paradise they envisioned isn't reality and what they once thought was gold has a certain tarnish to it now. but they stay and try and make it work because it's comfortable or, if they are really lucky ..it's meant to be.
but again for most of us. life goes on. and one day you'll find yourself having a gut busting laugh over something totally stupid and you'll think to yourself "i am getting better." and finally (thank god) you'll kiss (or even more) with some new person you have feelings for and find that a) if it wasn't good, at least you did it or b) it was so much better than with your ex you wonder why you waited so long to get back out there. and THEN you'll know you're one the real road to recovery.
i guess what i'm trying to convey here is, while each situation is unique, the characteristics of most of our situations are the same. most of us will go through at least something that i've written here. so, when someone tells you that time will help you get through it, believe them. when they tell you that "trust me, it will get better and you will stop hurting eventually.." believe them. and when they give you good advice that your head understands but your heart rejects, take a moment to think before you react.
don't beat yourself up if you do something that you wished you hadn't (calling, contacting, etc) WE ALL DID AT ONE TIME OR ANOTHER! be kind to yourself. be forgiving of yourself. and most of all remember that being happily single is an alternative. even if society is beating it into your head that you MUST have a mate/partner, take some time to heal before going back out there. there are plenty of good people to love, but don't go back out there broken, jaded about love, etc. accept realty. experience the pain. learn the lesson and actively try to heal. remember the person you were when you first met your ex and get that person back.
and the universe will take care of the rest..
(taken from http://www.xanga.com/keioffice/677582368/getting-dumped-what-to-expect/)
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