Homing

It seems that today and tomorrow will be the only day I stay at home the whole day with the exception of going out to eat during lunch and dinner. I can say that it really is relaxing for me to do this but if its in the long run I'll definitely get very very bored. Now my everyday task would be online, write blog, update simple photography guide (its coming back up real soon I hope. The web site is www.simplephotographyguide.blogspot.com), doing my final year project ( no idea how to continue without guidance of my 'beloved' supervisor) and some stuff that I planned to do a long long time ago but still not yet carried out. I really wish to do something interesting such as doing some photography job and get paid. Shooting models and events would definitely be great. With the pay I get from this freelance job I'm sure I'll be able to fund my own studio and get the A900 that I've always wanted. So any kind person out there would love to hire me?

Today during lunch I ate another round of Bar B Q plaza. After eating consecutive rounds of it for 2 days, I would like to say I'm kinda scared of eating it anymore for the time being. I cant keep eating the same food for a few days as I'll get sick of eating it. Don't know its just me or everyone also. I don't really enjoy food but I do enjoy spending my money on gadgets. This is one of the reason why you see me being such small size. So asking me to buy friends lunch or dinner is really not my style and please don't think that I'm stingy. If I can afford it I'll definitely treat my friends. As of now I'm signing off saying that I'm really broke and in need of money. Please anyone can help me out during my financial crisis?

Valentine's day

This day is suppose to be a sweet sweet day for every couple if they celebrate it. Actually not everybody would be happy today because if everyone is happy then there would not be war already. So I only can wish those unhappy couple to quickly try resolve theirs like how I always try to solve my relationship problems.

My celebration was just pretty simple a lunch together and then went for a movie together. Just bought her some simple valentine present. Its the thoughts that counts right? Here's what she got for me.

She said my face not clean enough wan me clean everyday ne. HAHA. Will try to remember it la. Thanks LAO PO. :D

I hope she enjoyed the day although I know its hard for her. But I promise I'll love her everyday and try to provide her whatever she needs. Shot a few nice shots of my beloved 'wife' using NEX5N but posting 1 here only. All of you can leave a comment on it ya.

One last shot of us together using hand phone camera.

wastage

Saw lots of wastage being done today. Was invited to the chinese new year celebration by BAKTI today. 1st of all CNY is already far over, for what they want to organise this to show off?? Next they want to held it at 1 5 star hotel JW Marriot. You all think la, just the place is expensive enough already. The food although is very nice, but its still not as nice as pure chinese food and its way way more expensive. I feel that they should cut down the budget on that and maybe donate cash to those really in need (ME!!!). LOL

Lastly the ang pao they gave me is only so so little. Was expecting maybe get RM50 so that can cover my petrol fees there. Looks like what I wanted could not get once again. I end up with just a miserable RM30. You tell me la, worth it to go or not. Ok I treat that the round I went back Serdang today is to test out my car whether the car is ok or not.

Dad's birthday

Finally my leg is not swelling anymore. All the extra water has been expelled out after taking the medicine. Hopefully after 2 months of eating the steroid my protein urea will reduce and be under control. Eating too much steroid is really giving me too much side effect. Keep feeling hungry, water retention in body, too energetic, my join which has avascular necrosis (AVN) is much more pain, etc.

Tomorrow need to go back UPM as BAKTI is organising some kind of Chinese New Year celebration for the orang kurang upaya (OKU). Heard got ang pao given but I doubt its even enough to cover my petrol for tomorrow. Just wait and see la.

Today is my dad's birthday. Did not really have the money to buy present and celebrate it as my camera repair has cost me RM980. So my sis just bought a cake from King's and treat him eat. Tried taking the picture of the cake and submit it as stock photography. Its still in the editing process. Hopefully it will be ready tonight for all readers to comment on it. Really need those comments as I want to improve on food photography too.

Thats all for now.

Problem arises

Yesterday was really not a smooth day. Whole day problem keep arising. So the 1st problem that appear is my health is not improving yet and I have to take the medication aka steroid which has lots of side effect for another 2 months. Mostly the medication will have no effect on me as my theory of repulsion in life is taking an effect.

Next my car. It is also having the same problem with me which is related to water. My car keep consuming a lot of water while my body is retaining so much water. How ironic ya? Till now the problem is still not solved and it needs to be constantly monitored so that my car wont spoil overheat and die on me before I graduate and get a new car.

Then yesterday while checking the car, the car repair took quite a long time and it made me break a promise with a model. I had to delay the photoshoot till so late night. Finished the shoot late and reached home quite late.

Money also using up very fast already. Still finding ways to find extra income. Camera repair is ready and I need to pay it. My 'wife' is also having her own problems but as her dear I'm not able to fully help her out. I felt so useless and feel that I'm her source of pain and disappointment as I broke quite a few promise before. I swear I'll try to change myself and not do the same mistake again.

Ok la enough of ranting already. Rest 1st and must not stress up myself.

changing plans

So many things running through my head now. The steroid side effect seems to be giving me a lot of side effect on me. I'm feeling restless and sleeping lesser now. I should be resting more since i'm sick right? but here I am awake and not in bed. I was suppose to join a camp to help collect donation to fund for a university activity but due to my health problem I had to cancel my plans. I wanted to join in to help out as a senior and maybe know the newer generation people too but as I said before things that I want will never get.

Its almost time for me to go repair my car. My car also same like me is sick. The car is using up too much water and while my body is keeping too much water. How ironic right?

needing cash

To survive everyone needs money nowadays. Everything cost a lot due to high inflation rate. I wonder why the money value keeps on decreasing? Is it because the petroleum of the earth is getting depleted and cause everything to rise? I don't think there's a solution to solve that problem.

So now I'm trying to think of ways to earn extra side income. Hopefully my passion of photography can help to keep me survive in the future. I'm planning to open up a studio as a business. I've been exposed to quite some knowledge on studio photography. BUT can I manage the studio properly and start earning? Maybe not just earn as long it can self sustain and don't bring me extra cost then I would be happy already. Too bad GOD would not let me have the things I want always. My theory for my life: Things that I want would never get it.

I'm also hoping to earn some extra income by getting a passive income. My target for this would be venture into stock photography. Anyone out there willing to give a helping hand by guiding me how to do it for free? Sharing knowledge is caring right? Do good things will be rewarded in some unexpected ways. Speaking of doing charity, its almost time for me to pack my stuff and get ready for PAP external affair camp liao. Signing off.