back to normal

after today everything should be back to normal again... my mom is back from the hospital already... dont need to do all the house work le.... yay... but i promise myself even if i dont need to do those any more i will nvr again give more trouble to my mom when she do the house work...

pain...

after just cleaning the ground floor of my house my 2 legs are now very very painful... i have ignored the doctor's order to minimise walking and clean the house by walking for i think 1 hour... what to do.. i have no choice but to clean the house... i dont want my sister to waste time cleaning the house and din have enough time to study... so i sacrifice myself... i hope that with my actions today there wont be any bad consequences in the future... my heart is also in pain... every time i do until so suffer i cried each time... yearning for my mom... while typing this my tears also slowly start to come out already... i cant help it... i'm just so useless...

useless

i'm now 19 going to be 20 yet i'm still so reliable on my mom... y am i so useless?? i'm kinda like a mama boy... not being able to be seperated from her... i should be independant since i'm a big boy now... its the 5th day now and she still haven recover... her platlet is still dropping... getting more and more worried... i cant do the house chores as good as my mom does... but yet i'm still trying my best... if only i could stand... things would be much much more easier... oh GOD please help me and cure my mom.... PLEASE!!!!!!

helpless

its been almost a day my mom is not at home... me and my sis have been given the task to do all the house chores... to me now the house is just like half chaos... this is because we couldnt do a really good job... today my sis need to go to school and she is still partially sick... so basically i have to do everything since she will be quite busy from now onwards... this is actually my first time doing house chores... all along my mom never let me do it because she wanted me to concentrate on my own studies... everyone sure will think that i'm too pampered and i admit i am pampered by my mom.... so now when it really comes to depend on myself i'm in big trouble... if i was normal now i think i will be able to do the house chores properly... but now i cant even walk or stand for long.... how do u expect me to swipe,mop,wash the clothes,etc etc..... i am really suffering right now... next time when i start my university life time how??? will i be able to take care of myself??? i dont think so lor... since there are many things that i have to depend on other people... then when i grow up already leh??? i think at that time i have to hire some one to help me around... this means i've got to work extremely hard to earn enough money to survive... i'm really really greatfull for what my mom has done for me in the past years... i'm sorry for giving her such a hard time last time by messing up the house and give her more work to do... i hope that my mom will quickly get cured now so that life could go back the way it used to be.... i dont know how long more i could tahan... please god help me!!!!! currently emoing....

falling sick

this time finally is not me falling sick... its my mom and my sis... my mom started to have fever 4 ays ago but it gone off after 2 days... she also vomitted quite a lot all these days and still haven stop.... she also have aches all over her body... so today after she took a blood test at the hospital finally confirmed got denggi fever le... so its now her turn to get admitted... my sis leh yesterday started to have fever... when today she go to the hospital with my mom the 1st thing the doctor found out wats wrong with her is she is haveing high blood pressure... at such a young age already got high blood pressure... ask her not to eat so salty stuff but she dont wanna listen... so today she kena poke by the doctor with a long needle and was put on drip... her drip was so fast... just within a few hours can come back home already.... so now since my mom is not at home its me and my sis turn to do the house work.... poor me... not able to move around freely yet need to help aound... if dont help my sis sure will make a lot of noise 1.... so the hardship starts now....

sleepless nights

haiz... this few days cant sleep well at night... everyday thinking of the new skyline that i've ordered but not yet receive... really hope that dimi will one day be free and drop by to pass me the yoyo....

Japan Super GT

the Japan Super GT is coming back to malaysia... and this year i'm gonna miss it again... but the reason for missing it is different from the past years... last time is always no money to buy the tickets... the main grand stand tickets cost RM150 but since i'm a student i can get half price for it... plus another ticket for the pit walkabout pass that cost RM100... actually what i really want is the pit walkabout pass only... but u have to purchase the main grand stand ticket only u can get it... do u know y i want that pit walkabout pass so much??? its because i would like to get myself close to those GT cars and especially those GT japan models... those models are damn pretty... but too bad the Japan GT queens this year dont look as nice as the past years... in the pass years i managed to take a few pictures with them and since then on i kinda get addicted to them le... hahaha.... i'm especially good at taking models picture with my digital camera... dont know y....

hopefully this year pray again see got miracle will happen or not so i can go to the Japan GT race held in sepang....